Things happen.

A lot has happened in the last few weeks. First off, I am getting a puppy, a female blonde and white basset hound in a few weeks. I'm thinking of being ironic and naming her Aphrodite. Second, I developed appendicitis in the beginning of the week and had an appendectomy Wednesday. I am now at home, sitting on the couch, doped up on pain pills. Thirdly, I have had an epiphany. For several months now, I have said that I wanted to get back into Taekwondo. I've only recently ( last night) realized why. I entered Taekwondo when I was young. How young? I really cannot remember. I achieved the rank of 3rd Degree Black Belt. I stopped taking class around one-and-a-half years ago. It just stopped interesting me.

I think the reason I want to take class again is not to obtain a goal, but to turn back time. For all of the past I can remember, I have been at Taekwondo. I don't really want to take class, I just want to go back to that simplicity of "Go to class at 12. go home at 1. Maybe go to the shop and back to class at 7:30.". I don't want to go to class to learn self-defence, or to earn 4th degree, or even just to get heathy. I like Yoga and riding my bike better. I want to go so things won't change.

I don't think I want to go back to class now. I don't think that I need to. I think what I need is not to try to remake the past, but to improve the future. Maybe in the future I'll go to Taekwondo. Maybe not. Time might tell.


This incoherent epiphany was brought to you by prescribed pain pills. Please forgive and disregard any and all bad grammer and less-then-perfect punctuation.